Journal

It’s amazing what can happen over 10 years. This day back in 2009, I was in San Jose, CA, with my ex, Ryan, going to see Nine Inch Nails/Jane’s Addiction “Waving Goodbye” tour. Ryan had gotten us access backstage to the concert and we got to meet Trent Reznor and other members of NIN and we had one of the best times of our lives. That was about a month before we broke up. Looking back, I can’t even remember why we broke up, but I do know that neither one of us was emotionally mature enough to do what was […]

I no longer listen to what people say, I just watch what they do. Behavior never lies. Winston Churchill And it’s done! I filed for divorce today. It was a mixed bag of emotions; there was a lingering sentiment and wistful reminiscing about the life I had, but those feelings were buttressed up against the excitement and anticipation about the life I’m going to have. There’s not much more I have to say about today.

… When their bones are picked clean and the clean bones gone,They shall have stars at elbow and foot Dylan Thomas “And Death Shall Have No Dominion” One year ago today was one of the hardest days of my life. June 20, 2018, was the day I had to say goodbye to a little black Pug that my ex and I had rescued back in 2010. Looking back, I had no idea how this little girl, weighing in at around 24 lbs., who constantly wheezed, snorted, and farted because the Pug breed is brachycephalic, a fancy word for saying they have […]

So…yeah…I bought a new car, a 2019 Subaru Crosstrek Limited. I had been working with a couple of dealerships here in Washington State, but ended up buying my car from a dealership in Coeur d’Alene, Idaho, and took delivery last night around 7:00 PM. The GM was good enough to meet me halfway in Davenport, cutting my drive time down by half since I was coming from an all day training in Wenatchee. I hadn’t planned on buying a new car, but circumstances made it more attractive to buy a new car rather than pony up $10K for the car I […]

In lucem aeternitatis. In the light of eternity. I’ll be 50 in less than two months and in less than two weeks I’ll be completely moved out of what has been my home for the past five years. I never conceived that my 10-year relationship would end essentially via stream-of-consciousness, rambling text messages two months ago, or that the person who meant more to me than anyone else in the world would sit across from me at our dining table, and tell me on a late Saturday morning a couple of weeks ago that he hadn’t been in love with me […]

(v.) to travel in a purposeful manner towards a vague desination. It’s been well over six months since my last post. This site was intended to be the anchor for me to continue my web development lessons, but alas, life found a way to distract me, and, once again, I’ll slowly attempt to carve out a sliver of time from each day to “journal”. 2018 Turned out to be a year of loss. Tiago and I said goodby to two of our fur-children, Pickles, our black Pug, and Little Miss, our black Brussels Griffon. Pickles we got from a friend of […]

I just learned that someone who was an important part of my life back in the late ’90s died last January. Even though it’s been close to 19 years since I last saw him, he always made me smile and I considered him a friend. When I first me Stephen Bertrand Kittrell (1956-2018) he lived in a one-bedroom apartment a block off Alki in Seattle.  We met at a coffee shop called “My Friends” back in 1995 and became fast friends. What I remember most about Steve was his rapier (and often vicious) wit and humor. When I came to his […]